“OPEN THE EYES OF MY HEART” by SONICFLOOD

Deep inside each of us is a desire to know God. I had grown up as a Christian and had been going to church and taking Bible classes for many years in order to understand God and know him, but all the head knowledge did little for my spiritual thirst. I was seeking God but not with real humility, and I wanted to know him not because I wanted to surrender myself to him but because I thought that doing what is right would please God and he would bless my life. It took me a long time to realize that God does not care if you do what is right if you do it with a wrong heart. Obedience is not God’s end-goal. He is after who you ARE not what you DO.

This was the first Christian song I had ever heard that just swept over me like a tidal wave. Instantly my heart was pierced and I felt a conviction rising in me. I began to understand that my heart had been calloused for so long and I did not even know it. In my pursuit to know God I had side-stepped having a genuine heart and had blindly adopted banal obedience. My relationship with God consisted of a to-do list and my heart was far from him. In my blindness I made excuses for myself to cover my ignorance. I thought I was seeking the Lord with humility, but the one thing about humility is that it is something you never need to convince yourself you have because humility only comes when you reach the end of yourself and there is nothing left in you that you need to convince.

The first time I heart this song I was sitting in my car in the middle of the night after just getting back from a long weekend trip with the marching band to an away football game. After I heard this song, I listened to it at least a dozen times right afterward and it moved me to the point where I had tears coming down my face because I felt the presence of the Lord changing my heart and placing within me desire to see his power and love in ways I never had before. He placed within me a heart that began to yearn to see him lifted high and glorified without any prospect to myself or my life. Hearing this song instigated a beginning and an end for me. It was the beginning of a new life living for the Lord and the end of myself and my self-serving efforts.